…….for a very simple reason – I sprained my ankle. The bad news on that is I’m limping on a weak ankle, using a cane when necessary for extra support and balance. The good news is, my ankle is healing and while it’s doing that, I’m gifted with more time to play around with the hair style that I’ve chosen.
This also puts me in a curious position – until my ankle heals completely, I’m not sure I want to wear the sensible shoes with the thick heel.  So now, I’m looking at my black ballet flats, which will do in a pinch. Not exactly period, but the height requirement on a flat-heeled shoe hasn’t changed all that much in eighty years. Also, the entire process is about learning who this character is – is she someone who wears sensible heels or sexy ones? Or is it dependent on the context of the situation? Does she prefer flats over heels?
And so on.
Now, given my gimpy ankle (short-term though it is), I’m wondering if this character has a minor disability as well, one that requires her to use a cane. It’s still all very ephemeral, so I guess I’ll find out as I go along.
Which is the beauty of research – it’s like being on a treasure hunt and each little nugget of information you gain leads you to more possibilities.
 There is always the fear of turning my ankle again – it’s painful and, if it doesn’t heal properly, I’m setting myself up for serious damage later on. Also, even paved, the sidewalks in my town aren’t exactly level.
……the dresses, the shoes and such. I’ve got options on the shoes – flats, sensible heels, and a slightly sexier pair of Mary Janes. The latter will probably not be worn, as this is more about getting to know the Character and her day to day experiences. Since I already know she’s not interested in keeping up with the latest fashions (unlike her older sisters), I’m not going to worry about a glamorous look for her.
At least, not yet.
Right now, I’m more interested in getting to know her from the inside out, much like an actor works to get to know their role in a play or film.  This means I’ve got to ask questions and make note of my discoveries in my journal. Questions may range from Does she have a speech impediment, or a upper crust dialect?; Does she have nervous habits and how do they manifest; Is her posture more formal when with her family and relaxed around friends? and everywhere in between.
Which brings me to my desire in dressing the part.
My reasons in dressing as this Character is to figure out her physicality and how she moves in the clothing and shoes of the period circa 1942. Women wore a significant amount of layers, more then than we do now, and those layers affected how they moved and felt. This includes their footwear. It’s one thing to walk around in sneakers and jeans (as I generally do, since I’m a walker), but to be able to walk a significant distance even in flats (let alone the thick, sensible heeled shoes I’m pondering on wearing) has me aghast at the idea of putting my feet through a tortuous ordeal. 
But…..I want to know these things, so as to better inform the Character’s personality and the choices she makes. It will give me the little details I might have missed had I not chosen to dress the part. And until I start, I won’t know what those details will be. That’s the beauty of this path in discovering who the Character is.
Sometimes, to know the character, you’ve got to dress the part.
 As an actor, I found that the more I asked why my character was in the story, the more reasons I uncovered that added layers to what might at first glance be a flat character.
 Already, my feet are putting in notices of protest.
…..and I’m pondering the idea of dressing as the main character in order to experience the world as she did.
Obviously, I won’t be subjected to ration books (because things like silk, food and other items were reserved primarily for those serving in World War II), nor will I be paying 1940s prices or rattling about in a 1935 roadster with rumble seat.  On the bright side, however, I can still listen to music, view films and read novels of that era quite easily. Also, there’s historical documents, non-fiction and documentaries to round all of that background out in a well-balanced way.
Still, my goal in dressing in a similar manner as the main character is to get a sense of how she walks and how her clothes and shoes affect her. This would greatly impact her thoughts, anyone she comes into contact with, how she feels about the day in general and her mood overall. Since I prefer comfortable sneakers, jeans and a T-shirt whenever possible, this will greatly enhance my understanding of the character.
I hadn’t tried this before, since most of my characters are set in our current time frame, but I’m actually tickled to try this one out. I have a dress that actually has that vintage look of the late 40s/early 50s and vintage shoes that have a thick and rather sensible heel (one that Miss Marple would approve of).  When I go into town, I tend to park a few blocks from the downtown area and walk in. This is the perfect amount of distance without overdoing things and defeating the whole purpose of this experiment.
There are a few things I’m going to have to go without, however. Gloves were quite the fashion accessory back in the day, which is something I don’t own. Neither do I have a proper hat to pin to my head (some with netting, some without). I’ve also no idea how to do up my hair to fit the time period (and I imagine it would be time-consuming). 
Still, I look forward to doing this – it’ll be fun, if not challenging. In theater, this is one way to find the character from the inside out, developing their history and their Moments Before, prior to their entrance into the story.
I will keep you posted with updates and pictures, as I catch them.
 Not gonna lie, I’m kind of bummed about that last one.
 It’s been commented upon that it’s a good look for me. I can work with that. 🙂
 There will be trips to thrift stores for the gloves and hat – hopefully, the luck of the Irish will be with me.
…….I made creative decisions about some of the characters in terms of gender, personality and role in their mythology. Since they’re basically archetypal, it was easy to do.
An example would be the character of Catamitus.
In Greek myth, Catamitus is male, one of Zeus’ many lovers and a cup-bearer to the gods.
In my play, I ultimately chose to change Catamitus’ gender to female and remove the lover aspect, but the character is still a cup-bearer to the gods. Sort of – she’s the manager of the hotel that caters to the gods and goddesses of all mythologies.
Which now leads to the name.
Catamitus is Latin, from the word catamite.  Although I had changed the character from male to female, I did not alter the name. The “-us” is for the masculine, while the “-a” is for the feminine. In a flash, I had fixed the problem of a running joke in my play.
Many of the characters never get Catamitus’ name right, often referring to her as ‘Cal’. It never really quite worked, even though I kept it in.
If I change it to Catamita? Oh, the possibilities!! The puns!! The gnashing of teeth!!
“Catamita done that” sounds close to “Cat might have done that”.
I can’t wait to dive back into my play and see how that works itself out.
Catamita, on the other hand, might just tender her resignation.
…….because it is a huge part of who I am and how I perceive the world. And since Novel Now Finished is about a woman who ‘sees’ the world differently and is told from her Point of View, it seemed like the ideal place to incorporate this part of my personality.
Is the Narrator herself on the spectrum? No, I didn’t write her to be Asperger’s, or even autistic, both of which were the furthest thing from my mind when I originally conceived the character and her story. However, like me, she sees things that others don’t – I can see patterns and energy within events and people and make connections. The Narrator works in a cemetery and sees and interacts with ghosts (which I think is far more fascinating than patterns and energy, but that’s just me).
It was only lately, in the last year or so, that I decided to make Asperger’s an unofficial part of the Narrator’s personality. To do this, I try to find similarities between my abilities and the Narrator’s and what aspect of my Asperger’s might fit within that scope. So far it’s been an interesting experiment and one that I hope to utilize more effectively in revision.
Which brings us to the question – how do I see the world?
Differently than the norm, would be one way to put it.
As described in other blog posts, I have had difficulty in reading body language and social cues or I have a tendency to be a little too open. The best analogy I’ve been able to come up with that others can understand is that it’s like having a paint pallet, but only half or even a quarter of the colors available. Sometimes it’s like walking around in an unfamiliar room in the pitch dark, with no idea of how to navigate around items that may or may not be there.
Like the Narrator, I’m also empathic – I’ll know by people’s energy if I want to be around them (if it’s a bad vibe, it’s like getting a stomach ache). I can ‘feel’ if someone’s lying to me, which is like getting sucker-punched; I can ‘feel’ other emotions that people try to mask with behaviors that contradict what I’m sensing, which is extremely confusing. When that happens, I have to sit back and observe for context. Often, however, I get overwhelmed by other people’s energy and I’ll end up spending days at home, just to recuperate and recharge.
Because of this, I tend to sit back and observe people and my surroundings. The details I pick up without even trying would astound you. I don’t think twice about it.
The most interesting challenge about incorporating my Asperger’s into the Narrator isn’t so much giving her those traits. The challenge is being able to observe my Asperger’s in such a way that I can identify what will work and what won’t. In other words, I have to be far more analytical than I already am.
As the Great Dane Scooby Doo would say, “Ruh, roh!”
The Autistic Brain – Temple Grandin
Thinking In Pictures – Temple Grandin
……while working on my first round of notes from my editor, I had the conscious thought that Novel Now Finished would be a life changer. At the time, I thought it would center around picking up a book contract from a publisher (and it may well do).
However, as I’m working on incorporating changes based on my editor’s note, I’ve been slowly coming around to the idea that there is a deeper meaning to my original thought.
One of my editor’s most constant notes to me is about giving my Narrator more agency in her own story. To have her make smarter choices and decisions, to have a more active role in the events that surround her. To not rely on someone else to get her out of a situation or give up her identity in the process. In essence, I was being asked to give her the opportunity to own her life and see what happens.
Whether it’s moving home (Secrets & Howls), dealing with trauma (The Pike Horse) or even being open to true love (Much Ado Over Murder), I’ve noticed that I’m often working on stories that reflect what has happened or is currently occurring in my own life. I often won’t recognize these elements until much later, but I’m not surprised that Novel Now Finished is following this trend.
I’ve described Novel Now Finished as being about a woman who comes out of the shadows and not only reclaims her power, but embraces it.
Guess what’s going on in my own life, right this minute?
There are so many details to marvel at, that I’m not even going to attempt to put them into words. I will, however, wax rhapsodic over how the story evolved over these six episodes, going from disconnected, strange pieces to what appears to finally settle into some kind of pattern that I’m not entirely too sure of, yet.
There won’t be any spoilers in this post, mainly because instead of focusing on the show itself, I’d have been writing down what happened as it happened. That’s not conducive to enjoying the show. I expect that, when I have this season on Blu-Ray or DVD, I’ll be going over it again and again and again, to catch every little detail. Because that’s what the Pause and Search buttons on the remote are for.
“I’ll see you again in 25 years.”
So said Laura Palmer Dale Cooper towards the end of Episode 29 of the original series (22, if you’re going by season). It was worth the wait and I’m glad I was able to watch multiple episodes of Season Three. It would have been nerve-wracking waiting for it each week, trying to keep up with the details and the symbolism and what it all means.
Laura Palmer still seems to be the main thread that runs through the entire story of Twin Peaks and Dale Cooper is still trying to unravel it – or reweave it into a new pattern.
In any case, I have to wait on seeing the next few episodes. As nerve-wracking as that may be, I’m glad – being able to binge-watch several episodes actually helps keep the continuity flowing and I went from seeing multiple, seemingly unrelated episodes scatter different pieces around to watching as they started to coalesce into something concrete.
What that is, I’m not entirely certain. But I’m looking forward to finding out.
…….and I’m starting to feel energized by writing again.
One of the notes I was given was to not summarize parts of my story – that if it was going to be mentioned, it deserved a scene of its own, in the present, as an action. So, I broke a chapter in half and created not just two, but three, chapters out of one. This includes the active version of what was a summarized scene.
The new scene, the one that breaks the former single chapter in half, takes place in 1924. An incident occurs in that year that is continually referred to throughout the story. It’s a pivotal moment in the story, as it affects several lives over the course of several decades leading up to the present. It may also be key to how the Narrator resolves the story and put an end to the danger that began even before 1924.
So it made sense to bring this moment out into the open.
And now I’m getting ideas on how to add some necessary details of the Narrator’s past into the main frame of the story.
And I’m beginning to feel excited by my work again.
…….going over notes from my editor covering the first eight chapters. After six hours of taking out, adding to, and much re-arranging of words, I’m now five pages away from finishing the original notes. Then, I’ll go on to the edits covering Chapters 9 through 16. There’s also a pass-through of the first eight chapters, mostly a tweak here, a question there, and I’ll get to those at some point.
As soon as I’m done working on Chapters 9 through 16, however, I’m going back into the thick of it and write on. There are some elements that I want to add in for some of the secondary characters and a new skill for the Narrator. Bits that need to be established early on in the story also have to be done (continuity is the thing, here), as well as adding detail to the world I’ve created.