…….I made creative decisions about some of the characters in terms of gender, personality and role in their mythology. Since they’re basically archetypal, it was easy to do.
An example would be the character of Catamitus.
In Greek myth, Catamitus is male, one of Zeus’ many lovers and a cup-bearer to the gods.
In my play, I ultimately chose to change Catamitus’ gender to female and remove the lover aspect, but the character is still a cup-bearer to the gods. Sort of – she’s the manager of the hotel that caters to the gods and goddesses of all mythologies.
Which now leads to the name.
Catamitus is Latin, from the word catamite.  Although I had changed the character from male to female, I did not alter the name. The “-us” is for the masculine, while the “-a” is for the feminine. In a flash, I had fixed the problem of a running joke in my play.
Many of the characters never get Catamitus’ name right, often referring to her as ‘Cal’. It never really quite worked, even though I kept it in.
If I change it to Catamita? Oh, the possibilities!! The puns!! The gnashing of teeth!!
“Catamita done that” sounds close to “Cat might have done that”.
I can’t wait to dive back into my play and see how that works itself out.
Catamita, on the other hand, might just tender her resignation.
…….because it is a huge part of who I am and how I perceive the world. And since Novel Now Finished is about a woman who ‘sees’ the world differently and is told from her Point of View, it seemed like the ideal place to incorporate this part of my personality.
Is the Narrator herself on the spectrum? No, I didn’t write her to be Asperger’s, or even autistic, both of which were the furthest thing from my mind when I originally conceived the character and her story. However, like me, she sees things that others don’t – I can see patterns and energy within events and people and make connections. The Narrator works in a cemetery and sees and interacts with ghosts (which I think is far more fascinating than patterns and energy, but that’s just me).
It was only lately, in the last year or so, that I decided to make Asperger’s an unofficial part of the Narrator’s personality. To do this, I try to find similarities between my abilities and the Narrator’s and what aspect of my Asperger’s might fit within that scope. So far it’s been an interesting experiment and one that I hope to utilize more effectively in revision.
Which brings us to the question – how do I see the world?
Differently than the norm, would be one way to put it.
As described in other blog posts, I have had difficulty in reading body language and social cues or I have a tendency to be a little too open. The best analogy I’ve been able to come up with that others can understand is that it’s like having a paint pallet, but only half or even a quarter of the colors available. Sometimes it’s like walking around in an unfamiliar room in the pitch dark, with no idea of how to navigate around items that may or may not be there.
Like the Narrator, I’m also empathic – I’ll know by people’s energy if I want to be around them (if it’s a bad vibe, it’s like getting a stomach ache). I can ‘feel’ if someone’s lying to me, which is like getting sucker-punched; I can ‘feel’ other emotions that people try to mask with behaviors that contradict what I’m sensing, which is extremely confusing. When that happens, I have to sit back and observe for context. Often, however, I get overwhelmed by other people’s energy and I’ll end up spending days at home, just to recuperate and recharge.
Because of this, I tend to sit back and observe people and my surroundings. The details I pick up without even trying would astound you. I don’t think twice about it.
The most interesting challenge about incorporating my Asperger’s into the Narrator isn’t so much giving her those traits. The challenge is being able to observe my Asperger’s in such a way that I can identify what will work and what won’t. In other words, I have to be far more analytical than I already am.
As the Great Dane Scooby Doo would say, “Ruh, roh!”
The Autistic Brain – Temple Grandin
Thinking In Pictures – Temple Grandin
…….while in the throes of going over edits is why the process of writing a book takes so fricking long.
In answer to so many questions that I’ve been getting when I mention that Novel Now Finished is in Round 7 of edits:
1. Each manuscript is different and requires a different amount of time and effort to get it to where it should be.
2. Each author/writer has a different method to their writing madness.
3. Each editor has their own questions and methods of communicating notes.
4. This is literally the second editor I’ve ever worked with – the first charged over a thousand ($1000-plus) for two hours (TWO!!!) worth of work. Had I known my current editor eight years ago, things would be different.
5. This is the first editor I’ve worked with on a consistent basis. She’s amazing and helpful and supportive and everything you’d want in an editor. In my own editing business, I hope to be just as amazing as she is.
6. If you think writing is so easy-peasy to get done and published, then please, by all means, get some paper and a pen and start writing.
7. Writing a book is a full-time commitment. It’s not for the faint of heart or for those who lack discipline.
8. The amount of research I have to do before, during and after writing the first draft would qualify me for at least three MAs/MFAs and/or a PhD.
9. There are days when I just want to quit and torch the lot of it. This is normal.
10. ^^^Then I give myself a shake and get over it. I’d rather be writing and working in my fictional worlds than anything else, so the frustrations are a small cross to bear.
11. Writing is not a hobby for me – a hobby is something you take joy in to escape the realities of life. While I love and enjoy writing, it’s often frustrating and annoying and I don’t escape the realities of life – it finds its way into my stories.
12. Art is political, it is angry, it is savage and ugly and hard to look at – but it also inspires, gives us joy and shows us the beauty in the human spirit.
…..something I’d always done up until about seven years ago, when I switched entirely to writing my novels and scripts directly onto a Word or Final Draft document. This was in large part due to a trauma that affected me in such a way that writing in long-hand felt too intimately connected to my brain. It would take three novels and a stage script before I found my way back to using pen on lined paper again.
I think it would be fair to say that the project that drew me back to writing in long-hand was, perhaps, a little ironic. The setting of the story is in the 1920s, decades before computers would replace the typewriter, a time when pencil or pen was also a more commonly used method to write down ideas, create poetry, stories and develop essays. This particular story is about passion, sensuality and love between two people, a particularly intimate story that has presented many challenges.
And that’s how writing long-hand is to me – an act of pure intimacy between the mind and the page. I love watching as the ink swirls across the page, forming words or shapes or quick sketches of horses. It’s almost never planned, those words or images – I often allow myself to go into a kind of trance and allow my subconscious to go where it wills. There’s something hypnotic about the way my pen feels in my hand, pressed against paper, as I try to keep up with the story playing out in my imagination.
…….and you’re stuck in place, unsure of which direction to go in. It’s a frustrating and often suffocating feeling, not knowing what to do next. Your creative project sits on your desk, silent and accusing, waiting for you to come back to it.
This is a familiar situation for me, and one that every creative experiences. You’re not alone in this – always remember that.
When I’m stuck on a project, I like to travel. Well, okay, thinking about traveling. There are places I want to visit and just sit and be, soaking in the scenery, the sounds, the colors and feelings it brings up. While I can’t travel to some places (yet), there are locations that are closer and more feasible to get to and enjoy.
However, sometimes I don’t even need that to jump-start my inspiration and creativity.
Here’s a creative challenge for you:
Pick a city anywhere in the world. It can be in Romania and have as its neighbor the castle of one of the most ruthless leaders of all time (Vlad Tsepes, aka the Impaler). Or it can be an ancient temple in Greece, overlooking a beautiful beach and deep blue oceans. Or…..
Well, you get the idea.
Pick a city that pulls you into it, that inspires you to use all five of your senses, quickens those creative juices that pulse through you, makes you smile. Even if you’ve never been there, you can utilize your own experiences to fill in the blanks.
For example – Secrets & Howls is set in a coastal village three hours north of San Francisco. For various reasons, the closest I’ve ever been able to get is Morro Bay. No two coastal villages are the same, as each town has its own unique personality. However, the important elements are the same – the sounds of seagulls, seals, the ocean and harbor. From this, I was able to build my own fictional coastal village, complete with lighthouse and jutting cliffs.
Utilizing all five of your senses and the creative medium you’re most comfortable with, pick a city and interpret it as best you can. What comes up may serve your current project or inspire a new one altogether or both. You never can tell.
……while working on my first round of notes from my editor, I had the conscious thought that Novel Now Finished would be a life changer. At the time, I thought it would center around picking up a book contract from a publisher (and it may well do).
However, as I’m working on incorporating changes based on my editor’s note, I’ve been slowly coming around to the idea that there is a deeper meaning to my original thought.
One of my editor’s most constant notes to me is about giving my Narrator more agency in her own story. To have her make smarter choices and decisions, to have a more active role in the events that surround her. To not rely on someone else to get her out of a situation or give up her identity in the process. In essence, I was being asked to give her the opportunity to own her life and see what happens.
Whether it’s moving home (Secrets & Howls), dealing with trauma (The Pike Horse) or even being open to true love (Much Ado Over Murder), I’ve noticed that I’m often working on stories that reflect what has happened or is currently occurring in my own life. I often won’t recognize these elements until much later, but I’m not surprised that Novel Now Finished is following this trend.
I’ve described Novel Now Finished as being about a woman who comes out of the shadows and not only reclaims her power, but embraces it.
Guess what’s going on in my own life, right this minute?
……where I can jot down every idea and thought related to it. That journal goes with me as I go about my day – you never know when that illuminating idea will strike. And I enjoy this process because it allows me to keep everything in one place and readily accessible. I’ve got at least three journals for Novel Now Finished and I expect that it will be the same for the sequel. Most of my novels (in progress or finished) have more than one journal to document my journey, from inception to completion.
Writers a funny breed – we observe, we document, we report on our findings, whether it’s fiction or non-fiction. I even keep a story idea box, which has become the repository of random items I find in my daily travels. And I keep everything – from scraps of old news clippings to a broken pair of glasses, that box is chock full of potential stories.
The more I write and read, the more I’ve learned to discern the voices of other writers. What does that mean? Well, if I listen to particular composer’s music often enough, I can find his (or her) musical signature in other compositions. Same with a particular writer – their ‘voice’ and writing patterns become familiar and within a few seconds of reading, I’ll know who penned that particular piece of writing.
This is all a part of my education as a writer – the more I read, the more I enrich my writing. And the more I journal the process, the better chance I have of either skipping a step that didn’t work previously or taking it in a new direction.
…..and have knocked out more than thirteen chapters (and leaving approximately thirty more to go). Things are changing, words are being cut (sometimes whole paragraphs) and so far, I’ve removed more than 5000 words (which is about 22 or 23 pages). I don’t delete these random sentences or passages – I keep them. I put them on a separate Word document, in case there’s a gem of an idea for a scene, either in this story or the next one.
You just never know.
Sometimes the notes from my editor are simple enough for me to make the necessary changes without a lot of thought. I dive in, make changes that not only clean up the scenes, but bring in a richer feel, as well. Other times, it’s like pulling teeth and I’m staring at the computer screen, with my eyes glazing over.
You know. Like this:
One of the things I’m hoping to incorporate into the Narrator are the aspects of someone who is on the autism spectrum, specifically, Asperger’s Syndrome. This was a personal decision, one I had posed to my editor. I’m an Aspie, myself, and I’ve never been shy about explaining this to the people around me.  As I’ve mentioned in a previous post, being frank about it helps me to navigate the world.
As for my story, I’d been considering writing about an Aspie character and in many ways, the Narrator in Novel Now Finished fits the bill perfectly.
Am I comfortable cannibalizing elements of my life for a story? Of course I am. There are things from my life that I’ve put into my stories that demanded to be there. The more I resisted adding personal bits, the more they wound themselves into it. So, in they went.
And as I go through Novel Now Finished, I’ll be looking for places to accentuate her Asperger’s characteristics, whether it’s her speech or her focused attention on a particular goal. I’m also going to look at my own particular habits and peculiarities, in order to flesh the Narrator out a little more, ground her in reality.
It should be interesting.
Writing usually is.
 I make sure to identify my Aspie-ness in a moment that seems ideal, usually, when the conversation has gone from superficial politeness to an actual conversation, where the other person and I are getting to know each other a little better. Most of the time, this engenders an acceptance from the other person. Most of the time.